Well.. well... what we got here... :) Just received an email from the States Bear, Carter, that he will update me whether is he coming to visit me or not while right now he is at the war zone in the middle east. He also ask for my home address as he want to send me a Christmas gift. And yet again I politely reply to him to send the gift to other needy, people whom lived in poor middle east area or someone in the States whom worried and missing him so much. I am just a new friend he make online and don't put me high hope of thinking I will be his life long partner. Yet, I still don't know whether if he really get what I mean from those emails I send, so been emphasizing to him as friends when reply him back. So hopefully he get it.
Christmas is coming... Had make planned for the holiday, I not a christian but making used of this holiday season to book a chalet on 23 Dec to 25 Dec 2011 and gather small group of friends BBQ on 24th Dec. 2011. It was initiate by one of my poly-mate and somehow I become the organizer and the treasurer to gather people, collect money and purchased the food and appliances for the event. The last time we had this gathering was 2009 as 2010 I was working in overseas and none of my poly-mate doing this gathering event. I can say I like the center of all the group contacts, without me they wont unite or bother to meet up (or I guess only LOL)... So what and where did I spend my Christmas 2010? I was spending my time in Qatar and working.... so nothing to happy to look back at..(Friendly, speaking none of the Christmas have ever make me unforgettable.. is just another holiday.. LOL... )
After sending off the Santa Claus, and is the New year time... I swear I will put my status on facebook with this sentences;
" Fuck you and thank you 2011, for been letting me experiencing the darkest moment in my life so far. Welcome my love 2012, and hope you wont disappoint me and lets make more happy great moment of time through the year."
Yup, think that's the sentences, I gonna put on when New Year Day 2012 arrived. Well, I didn't make any planned for the coming New Year Eve celebration yet. The last New Year 2011, celebration I had was having holiday at Abu Dhabi, UAE, with my working colleague. Clean sheet, no hanky panky or getting laid with someone. Maybe because of that my 2011 is shit and screw up because didn't screw a guy. LOL...
I remember New Year 2010 Eve, I was with my straight couple friends went to Backstage (A gay bar) to welcome New Year 2010. I hunt down a German bear, Richard, give him my 1st kiss in 2010 and after celebrate the New Year Day, I said good bye to the couple and went back to Richard place to get laid. LOL.... It was a fantastic night. Of course, Richard, was not just a one night stand, we did meet up after that and nearly get attached.
However, I was focusing on my study and I not also not able to fulfill his expectation as a boyfriend of his. As he expect me to move in and live with him at least 3 or 4 days a week, which I couldn't due to my parents (Traditional Chinese Asian culture or should say my family culture.. and don't want to make a big scene out of it, just want to keep away from troublesome). So that the reasons, we didn't become one happy couple.
Anyway, he is now I supposed happily attached with an Asian Chinese boy who just out of the army and living with him. (Please don't ask me why both same Asian people and why the boy can do and I can't? The reason as I mentioned, I don't want to put a fight with my parents. They are old enough and I believe no one would like to see family quarrel). Yes, you may say so forever I will be stuck living with my parents? The answer of course is NO, right now I focusing on my career and once I can see my path of success in the mid way at age 35(The earliest age I supposed), Wowhoo..., can planned either bought an own flat apartment, move out of my parents house and live alone waiting for the Mr. Right bear. Or I can planned to move out of Singapore to live my own life. So I must success and can't failed.. else I forever stuck there and be trapped I supposed.....
Anyway, for the upcoming New Year 2012 eve, LOL... most probably will be go to the gay bar, hunt down a bear, to his place and get laid, screw the bear for a good start 2012. LOL.... So who will be the LUCKY BEAR!!!!!!
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