Yesterday on my way to work... I start thinking for the past 2 nights I dream of my granny who just passed away about a month ago. Wondering why I didn't ask her how is she doing over there? Has she known I miss her? Did she know I kind of depressed?
I really had no idea what is my job scope and what am I doing in that company. I feel I can't contribute anything to the company and it affects my salary which I feel is kind of low as well as career advancement. Will work for one month and see how it goes.
That Surveyor company please help... offer me, please!!!!! I need you very badly...
Was so bored with my job and is Friday, so ring out my after buddy, Bert, who will not fall in love with me even the world left only me. He is just like Jj or both the same, can be a good friend but no more further than that. We went to watch "What is your number", is a funny love comedy. Anyway, the movie did touch about been myself been what you are and not what people want you or you want to make yourself so that people can accept you. Yes, saying it is easy but doing it takes times and sometimes you don't realise that you are not yourself which I think I always forget. Another thought which came from the movie is dream, goal and marriage. I was wondering will I ever able to get married to a man I love and live with him happily. Is that possible in my future? And will I able to have my own child which required me to find a surrogate mother or female friends or friend sister or any female who willingly wanna help me to conceive a child for me?
As I thinking about all these, it is 3.00AM, Saturday... I should be asleep now....
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