2008 I had no ideal what did I went thru... Is CRAZY. I didn't know what happened to myself.. why and how did I wrote that hahaha... and worst who is that guy I referring to in 2008-03-23 12:17????
"What Is Love"
2008-12-14 00:34
"What Is Love"
Is it a truth?
Or is it a fear?
Is it a rose to for my valentine?
What is love?
Is it only words?
I'm trying to find?
Or is it the way,that we're feeling now?
What is love?
If love is truth,then let it break my heart.
If love is fear,lead me to the dark.
If love is a game,i'm playing all my cards.
What is love?
A pain or a cure?
A scienece of faith?
A reason to fall to your knees and die?
What is love?
If love is truth,then let it break my heart.
If love is fear,lead me to the dark.
If love is a game,i'm playing all my cards.
What is love?
Only you can save me now.
Only you can heal me now.
Only you can show me now, what is love.
Or is it a truth?
Or is it a fear?
Is it a rose for my valentine?
What is love?
What is love?
小虎队----爱
2008-09-27 15:18
小虎队----爱 把你的心 我的心 串一串 串一株幸運草 串一個同心圓 讓所有期待未來的呼喚 趁青春做個伴 別讓年輕愈長大愈孤單 把我的幸運草種在你的夢田 讓地球隨我們的同心圓 永遠的不停轉 向天空大聲的呼喚 說聲愛你 向那流浪的白雲 說聲我想你 讓那天空聽得見 讓那白雲看得見 誰也擦不掉我們酗U的諾言 想帶你一起看大海 說聲我愛你 給你最亮的星星 說聲我想你 聽聽大海的誓言 看看執著的藍天 讓我們自由自在的戀愛 That's what I will do for my love one.. hahhahahaha...... :)
Strong
2008-08-28 23:09
Well, guess this song "Strong" reflect for me in past few days and this days. :)
Strong by Robbie Williams
My breath smells of a thousand fags
And when Im drunk I dance like me dad
Ive started to dress a bit like him
Early morning when I wake up
I look like kiss but without the make up
And thats a good line to take it to the bridge
And you know and you know
Cos my lifes a mess
And Im trying to grow so before Im old I'll confess
You think that Im strong you're wrong
You're wrong
I'll sing my song my song my song
My beds full of takeaways and fantasies
Of easy lays
The pause buttons broke on my video
And is this real cos I feel fake
Oprah winfrey ricki lake
Teach me things I dont need to know
And you know and you know
Cos my lifes a mess
And its starting to show so before Im old I'll confess
You think that I'm strong you're wrong
You're wrong
I'll sing my song my song my song
If I did it all again Id be a nun
The rain was never cold when I was young
Im still young were still young
Lifes too short to be afraid
Step inside the sun
And you know and you know
Cos my lifes a mess
And Im trying to grow
And you know and you know
You think that Im strong youre wrong
Youre wrong
Ill sing my song my song my song
You think that Im strong youre wrong
Youre wrong
Ill sing my song my song my song
Lifes too short to be afraid So take a pill to numb the pain
You dont have to take the blame
Lifes too short to be afraid So take a pill to numb the pain
You dont have to take the blame
Lifes too short to be afraid So take a pill to numb the pain
You dont have to take the blame
Just another moment of talking to myself
2008-08-09 01:17
Why still single? So you flirting around? Are you a cock teaser? Hahahaha..... Single? Haven't found the Mr Right yet. Yes, I do flirt around with guys. :) Well, why not? I'm single I love to cock tease people. For friends who knows me well, I always tease them and make them "hard" I supposed hehehehehehe (Do I??) Did I ever love someone seriously before? Yes, everybody at least had once before. I had two in my life so far. 1st one was 4 yrs ago a local guy (J) but is just a one-way love I supposed. So he really likes me or loves me I not too sure. But I can say I still love him in my heart. The 2nd one was from overseas (Jj). And I started to keep a distance away... No point waiting and hoping one day I will be there with him when he already let go of you and want you to find a better one. No more sweetie here and there. I've put a stop for it. Move on and keep his love inside my heart too. So far only 2 lah.. Others that I had been.. hahahah are just dating, teasing, having fun with. I do have the feeling with them but not as serious as the two I had mentioned. Some find out that they are not my Mr.Right or I'm not their Mr Right or us just simply wanna have fun without any string.... Yeee... Haaaa.. (That's me K)
Thats my feeling tonight....
2008-06-22 23:46
Did you know when you\'re around
My heart won\'t it can\'t slow down
It beats so hard it makes it hard
To catch my breath, to catch my breath
Don\'t ever ask me if I\'m sorry
Or that I\'m here with you
Baby you can bet
I don\'t regret the guys
I never knew
Every day\'s another first
Another change for me
To fall in love with you
And I do:
Did you know when you\'re around
My heart won\'t it can\'t slow down
It beats so hard it makes it hard
To catch my breath, to catch my breath
Oh.. when you\'re with me I stop seeing
Any way to fail how do
I explain I try to tell you what
I\'m feeling But how do I when all words pale
Did you know when you\'re around
My heart won\'t, it can\'t slow down
It beats so hard it makes it hard
To catch my breath, to catch my breath
Did you know when you\'re around
My heart won\'t, it can\'t slow down
It beats so hard it makes it hard
To catch my breath, to catch my breath
To catch my breath, to catch my breath
To catch my breath, to catch my breath
Just been emotional....
2008-06-15 01:42
Thank you in advance
For the love you'll give me.
I've glance of the good life
You'll be there when nobody believe me
I've gone through it all in my mind.
I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there till the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Have you ever loved somebody so much it make you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad you cant sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever?
Have you ever?
WHAT I LEARN FROM SEX AND THE CITY MOVIE
2008-06-01 02:05
I think after all everybody is looking for love.... someone whom they want to be with and spend the happy times moment together. Yes, LOVE is a must.. but don't forget bout your friends. They are important as well. They are always there for you when you are sad, lonely and had problems. In this movie, I saw true love and true friendship. And got to learn been true to yourself and choose the things that are best for you. But is just a movie, it could be like our fairytale story.... (HAPPILY EVER AFTER) Anyway, is a good lovely movie. Did saw a guy I like in the movie... Hahahaha... MR. BIG.. Such a gorgeous guy.... I love him. (I mean outlook and inner wise nah.. just a movie character not the real person's character). :)
MY LOVE
2008-05-25 15:07
Since I love you, I would like to see my love to be happy and not sad. I don't like to force my love to do things that he doesn't like but will support my love for doing things that he likes. To make sure he's happy. If I can't accept the way he is, I will still love him but leave him as he is. As I know we are not able to be together and I'm not his Mr Right anymore. Is time for us to be apart and becomes friends. All I want is to make sure my love is happy. And I will be happy to see him happy as well.
Anyone want to buy my contract?
2008-04-06 23:07
These days my work sucks.... Getting more and more work task and difficult to handle for me. Is either my manager looked highly on me or I suck (meaning I not able to perform to the standard) Almost every weekday I working till 8pm or 10pm... And the next day woke up 545am for work again. Weekend for both day got to work too..... Arrgghhh.... Worst is I like to have my personal time doing my own things... ended I have lesser time for my sleeping time... like 4 or 5 hrs.... Started to have stupid thought when I on my way to work... Wished the bus I'm travelling now caught a serious accident and I got injured ended in the hospital.... Or hope someone good buys my contract so I free from that stupid work... LOL... Dream on dream on.... Argghhhhhh.....
Is been long.... Where have you been?
2008-03-23 12:17
I will not be letting you. Have been quietly waiting for you..... :)And now I got you.. You did make my day happy now... :)
Been worst and nasty...What had happened?
2008-03-20 00:10
I have been getting more and more impatient and frustrated with everything. I am not used to be chatty, sweet, flirty and nice guy nowadays. There's a few reasons for it I supposed and I think should not be supposed but confirmation. I have been working for 16 days non-stop come back to work on weekend Saturday, Sunday and even my reservist day I still got work to do at home as I bring the work back home. Rushing to finish that work. I need a rest day and I mean work free.... I have to admit I do meet up a few nice guys for the past few months.. but they are either attached, dating with someone, staying overseas, or just wanna have fun no string attached.... I know I should wait and my time will come.... I told myself that too... But it would be nice to have in a way as when I so work out, I still have him. Someone that makes me put all the frustrating things and work aside. And looking forward to seeing him, hug him, lay around with him because to me having him is the happiest time I ever had.... I'm a very emotional person.. and lots of people say I should control my feeling and not to let it control me so easily... I know but I really can't control, sorry. I still can't get over with my last date..... Why he wanna break my limits. I have given all I could.. even the hxxe I have given him too.. what he still want? Love is not always giving and always take.... Wonder did you give me before? I do like and love you if not I wouldn't, why I still can't forget bout you and bitchy it out in the diary.. You don't bring me to the pub. I listen to you, I let you go alone there and I stay at home. I've been honest to you, I told you everything bout my past and what I doing now... But what did I get? Is the words from you that hurt me ("Where are you?" Are you having fun with a guy" or "Are you sucking dick now")... Did I get angry? Yes, I do but I like you so much I give way to you.... The worst is you tell me you don't trust me after knowing what I been through the past. But isn't a past is past? So someone who had done wrong cant gets a new life? I was young and I believe everybody during the young time, try out a lot of things... as curious make people explorer.. and after a long time they finally know what they want... So I know what I want and what I looking for.. If you still think I'm the same as the past let it be.. Is your mind and brain.. I have no choice... But to give way to you. As I like you. Everybody had its own limit.. You break my limit as you acting like a girl to me. You are so indecisive.... Just give me a straight answer... Yes or No. Is so simple.. Don't bushed around with someone who is waiting for you the whole day. I still kept his message till now as I cant believe he's such a girl. I really hope he could change one day. I arranged my work to do all Sunday and let saturday time to be free for him.... He text me afternoon he got something caught up lets meet on the evening at 8pm... I went out with my straight couple friends movie while waiting for him. bout 730 text him but no reply and only get his reply bout 10 mins later. Not even a sorry words come in but telling me I overslept and still in bed give me some time... I give him the time and I told him I will wait and ask my couple friends to go to other places without me as I waited for him. Its was coming to 8pm, he texts me what I wanna do... I told we can go for dinner, or just walk around... he says he still in bed.. That makes me nuts... So I asked him if he still wants to come out? or not? He replies to me I not sure as I still lying on the bed.... That's it... I hate that... is like a girl indecisive.. I mean you are a guy, a big guy, just give me a straight answer whether you want to come out and see me that's it.. stop asking me the whole day what are we gonna do and make me wait and looking forward the whole day... and ask me "I not sure I still in bed" So what the pools here thinking? I know I'm bitchy and I shouldn't but as I say these days is so crazy I would say lol........
Crazy tonight 08032008
2008-03-09 02:32
Went movie "Step Up 2" Dress and do some nice style for my hair and waiting for someone. Anyone then someone didn't turn up he just makes me sick lol hahahah.... I went crazy tonight anyway.... Went dancing with my group of straight friends in 'DOUBLE O" and Mohammad Sultan... and out alone to "Tantric" for a drink and move out to "BACKSTAGE" for another drink. Didn't picks up and guys just say hi and bye to some friends that happen to meet up in the bar. And back home.... I can't believe I do such crazy things ( I mean to me is crazy hahahha) I dont go to "TANTRIC" or "BACKSTAGE" alone but tonight I did it...... and on my way to flag a cab I dance and sing loudly in the street hahhahahha so KUKU...... What a crazy night for me....
Dating again... bad moved hahahahaha
2008-03-04 00:49
Ok, foolish again. What to say.... As Sean say I easily go all way out to someone I really like. And ended ruin it and got out of nothing hahahha.... Sean was not around me anymore so can't cry out loud. I still remember the time I cry out loud in the public lol..... He was there beside me... And seen my stupid drama lol hahhaha... Yes, I have to admit when coming to like someone or in love or relationship. I'm not really good at and know how to deal with it. I totally suck.... Hahahhaha....... I can't express out what I want and what I looking for clearly and straight to people. Making things worst and worst and ended nothing but turn me as a jerk, slut or bitch or whatever lah... hahhahahha.... My ex used to say he's a bitch.. or fat or ugly... I'm also lah now... A bitch and growing fat also lah.... outlook is cute but insight is ugly lah.....What to do face the fact and move on.... It hurts but I have to go through it is part of life .. No one fault but is my fault for being so emotional.... and spiteful and later on back to normal.... Is like a mad person lol hahahhahahahahhaha........ After reading my blog, better don't get too close to me.. hahahahhahah... If you wanna take the risk go ahead but be warned...
Suddenly Back to my Old Life hahaha...
2008-02-17 01:38
Back in 2002 and 2003. I remember I used to walk from places to places during the weekend. And my walk means long walk hahahah not window shopping. The longest record I remember was from Bt Panjang to Orchard. The route is from Upper Bt Timah Road to Newton Circus and turn into Orchard Road. It took me 3hr and 45 mins. And now, not sure what happened to me these few days. I started to pick up running. And on 16/02/2008 I went hardcore to run from Bt Panjang to Serangoon (Tekka Market). It took me 2hrs. Hahahaha... Upgraded me from walking to running. Now my legs are very tired..... Hahahha..... But I'm proud of myself for doing this and feel achieve something though others may think is weird and crazy. hahahahaha
RETRO MUSIC.......
2008-02-03 03:11
Thinking in square rooms a human without illusions
Sad strains on a sad face is that what we've come to?
Is the world bold this love old moving nowhere and it's gonna cold.
The wind stops the clouds go we're all alone.
Oh Oh I know I can see those.
Oh oh I know I can see those.
I can feel those I can see those.
Oh oh square rooms oh oh square rooms.
They don't listen they don't care if a man is in despair.
Oh oh square rooms oh oh square rooms. ...
Walks long and long clears the vision of one with one
And you still move me you undo me like you've always done.
But I realize now we've not made you out of words now
Just you and me just you and me until the end of time.
Oh oh I know I can see those. . . .
Oh oh square rooms oh oh square rooms. ...
Oh oh square rooms oh oh square rooms. ...
Oh Oh square rooms oh oh square rooms. ...
Do you guys remember this song? Yes, is an 80's music. I like retro music and this is one of the songs I like and dance in the club and sad to say only in the straight or mixed club-like Zouk and Double O will play these songs in their retro nite. I don't hear or maybe hardly heard this song played in any of the gay clubs. Maybe I was wrong cus I don't go gay club often. I started to like retro music and dancing during my polytechnic years with my poly mates. It was 2001 like 7 years ago hahahah..... so long and the retro music still the same till now 2008 which I had gone tonight at double O. But a few songs was faced out such as summer rain (one of my favourite), Forevermore and one or two others songs. I can see there's a big change in the club or should say I'm old hahahaha.... Most of the crowd there are 18 to 23 and rarely mid-20s and above. Looking back that's my age I started to come to the club. So is just bringing new blood and probably the old blood went to other clubs like MOS or St James. The way the crowd's dance was big difference too. 1st is they had innovated the dance move, which makes me feel totally outdated hahhahahaha..... 2nd is the people are dancing in a big group like 15 to 20 and doing the same dance moves. I was impressed with them as the whole scene looks cool and great on the dance floor. Is more like a line dancing now :)... Well, anyway that makes me missed the club, Midnight Shift, the gay club in Sydney. I really love enjoying that place. They played nice songs and music, and I enjoy dancing over there. Was so great... gonna visit there again. :)
Looking Back..... 2003 to 2007
2008-01-14 00:59
Wow.. time fly very fast.... Remember when I 1st started coming out was 21 yr old. Yup very young.. I went to sgboy and post an ad to try out meeting guys. I want to know about my sexual orientation. Hahahha.... and yup I like to be with guys and had fun with guys lol..... Throughout the 4 years, I do meet up nice and good looking (in my eyes) guys. And I do really enjoyed the fun and laughter together. But none of them wanted me for more .. hahahaha they just wanna fun will do. They always said to me I still young still have a long way to go. I shouldn't be looking for this thing called LOVE. This year I'll be 26. Wandering if I went back to them, will they say I still young? Hahahha probably... I guess.... Some may have attached some may really just want to be single... Nevertheless, I still like guys who are older in the 30s and big built... My preference hasn't changed at all.
Take That : Rule The World
2008-01-06 12:49
The more I listen the more I like it. Intro to u "Rule The World" from Take That. :)
Take That : Rule The World
You light the skies, up above me
A star, so bright, you blind me, yeah
Don't close your eyes
Don't fade away, don't fade away-
Oh Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl
We can rule the world-
Yeah you and me we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side
We can rule the world-
If walls break down,
I will comfort you
If angels cry, oh I'll be there for you
You've saved my soul
Don't leave me now, don't leave me now
Oh Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl
We can rule the world
Yeah you and me, we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side
We can rule the world- Ooooooooh
All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you, for you
All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you, for you- Ooooooooh
Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl
We can rule the world
Yeah you and me, we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side
We can rule the world
All the stars are coming out tonight (oooooooh)
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you, for you-
All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you,for you-
All the stars, are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you, for you-
All the stars, are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you,for you-
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