I would say 2007 I change my career, visit my best friend/sweetie and also out to my family.... a special year to be remembered for me
20th of Dec\' 08 that nite.
2007-12-24 00:13
For the past four years, I always thought that my mum would be furious, sad and hate of me been gay. As my mum is very conservative. But yet to my surprise! On the 20th of Dec' 08 that nite. I told her that I'm gay and I like guys. She was fine and not sad and angry. She accepted what I am. I was very happy and joyful. I kept this secret from her for 4 years. I finally had a relieve. And couldn't believe in myself. Was it a dream or not? Thanks, mum. Love you as always. Kiss and hug
If only................so.......... :(
2007-12-11 00:05
Went to Australian, Sydney and Melbourne. Finally, I'm living and acting like myself. Is totally myself. I feel very very very happy. I really wanna express out in details and more but can't find the right words but HAPPY. I really like to thanks William who is my good friend, good pal, good buddies, good brother. He always there supports me and during that few days staying with him. We had a very strong bond which is exactly the same as like family bonding. James who is also my good friend and my lovely sweetie. MUACK!!! a kiss for you. Although is just 2 days in Melbourne. But you really done more than a friend do to me. I'm touched and very happy. How I wish if only I had one or two friends or a lover in Singapore too. If not I will and might just move out of Singapore and live in Australia with them. Hahahahaha... which is impossible. I don't know why ever since I'm back to Singapore I never stop running tears....(Sound like a girl and I know I shouldn't but that's me) If only..................... so................
17112007 Went to LUNAR. Love the place
2007-11-18 03:38
Went out with my group of straight friends to this new club called LUNAR. A straight club play mostly Asian songs live band. Like the place very much. They play and sing songs which most of the songs I like. Enjoying the dancing and drinking :) The 1st moment I enter the club, the live band had started. My attention got attracted by this singer called Johnny, who I supposed is from china. His cute and hunky heheheheh... My cup of tea..hahahhahaha.... Suddenly there are two ladies invite us for drinks. Both in the late 20s or coming 30s. They are Sandra and Yvonne. Sandra told my friends that she thought that I'm 27 and for the rest of my friends are in 22 to 24. So I'm the big brother bringing his group of little brothers out to see the world hahahahahhaha......( Why do ladies say I look old and the guys I met often say I too young) Sandra came over and ask me to go over and dance with Yvonne. Well to be polite, I went over and dance with Yvonne. Not too bad to dance with a gal but would prefer guy especially guys that I like hehehehe (thinking of J, miss u)... Later on, I feel funny after Sandra came and talk to me again. Asking me do I like Yvonne. I was shocked in a moment. And reply to her ok...ok... but as a friend. Just wondering did I reply wrongly?
My 2 weeks of reservist in-camp training
2007-10-14 23:43
I'm FAT now. Thought back to the army should be tough and lose some weight. But is different lol. I did go to the field training and eat the field combat ration. Been a company quartermaster sergeant, there's not much of training because there aren't many store items moving around the field for this in-camp training. So lucky me. hehehhehe Food wise, not many of my comrade take the field combat ration. They bring their own canned food. So I took their combat ration. Taken the packet of three meal a day of combat ration as one meal a day. In other words, for my lunch, I took two meals and same for my dinner during the field camp training. So work less eat more... the end results it turns out my weight from 67kg to 75kg. hahhahaha..... Can call me Fatty now I supposed.
"L.O.V.E."
2007-09-16 23:32
"L.O.V.E."
L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore
Can love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two Two in love can make it
Take my heart but please don't break it
Love was made for me and you
L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore
Can love is all that I can give to you
Love, love, love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart but please don't break it
'Cause love was made for me and you
I said love was made for me and you
You know that love was made for me and you
I want to live
2007-09-04 22:13
Sometimes I feel like I need to shake myself, to wake myself.
I feel like I just sleep walkin' through my life Its like
I'm swimmin' in an ocean of emotion
But still, somehow slowly goin' numb inside
I don't like who I'm becomin'
I know I've gotta do something'
Before my life passes right by I wanna cry like the rain, cry like the rain
To shine like the sun on a beautiful mornin'
Fight with the Devil and go down swingin'
Fly like a bird roll like a stone
Love like I ain't afraid to be alone
Take everything that this world has to give
I wanna live
Sometimes I wonder why I work so hard, to guard my heart
Well I hardly feel anything at all I've spent my whole life building up this ivory tower
Now that I'm in it I keep wishin' it would fall
So I could feel the ground beneath me
Really taste this air I'm breathin'
And know that I'm alive I wanna cry like the rain, cry like the rain
To shine like the sun on a beautiful mornin'
Fight with the Devil and go down swingin'
Fly like a bird roll like a stone
Love like I ain't afraid to be alone
Take everything that this world has to give
I wanna live
Something deep inside keeps saying
Life is like a vapor
Its gone in just a twinklin' of an eye I wanna cry like the rain, cry like the rain
To shine like the sun on a beautiful mornin'
Fight with the Devil and go down swingin'
Fly like a bird roll like a stone
Love like I ain't afraid to be alone
Take everything that this world has to give
I wanna live Yeah yeah
by Josh Gracin
Remind me about you, Karsten
2007-08-19 04:18
Just met John from Hongkong. Had a nice chat and dinner with him. It's been a long time I hadn't catch up with him since he flying around Hongkong, Malaysia and Singapore. I left home after dinner with him. While on my way back, somehow seeing John reminds me of a person I used to meet up and had nice chat and to hang ard with. And that's Karsten. Hahahaha..... Wonder how his love life goes...... :) Should be doing well.... Cos he's a lovely and nice guy :)
Somebody's Me by Enrique Iglesias
You Do you remember me like I remember you
Do you spend your life going back in your mind to the time
Coz I I walk the streets alone I hear people my own and everyone can see that
I real fair and I'm going for her thinking about you was somebody else
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breathe without you it's lonely
Somebody holds I won't think you will see
That somebody's me
That somebody's me
How How did we go wrong
It was so good and now it's gone
Then I pray at night that our passing will cross what we had is a lost
Coz you're always you're here in my lost
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breathe without you it's lonely
Somebody holds at someday you will see
That somebody's me oh yeah
You'll always be in my life
Even if I'm not in your life
It's in my memory
Now when you remember me
And before you set me free
Oh listen please
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breathe without you it's lonely
Somebody holds that someday you will see
That somebody's me (yeaaheeyeeh)
Somebody's me Somebody's me Somebody's me
Do you know? Do you know?
2007-08-02 19:36
Do you know? Do you know?
Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?
If birds flying south is a sign of changes
At least you can predict this every year
Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
I can't get it to speak
Maybe if I knew all the things it took to save us
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I'm standing on the edge and I don't know what else to give.
Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?
How can I love you? How can I love you? How can I love you? How can I love you?
If you just don't talk to me, babe.
I flow through my act
There's a question: Is she needed?
And decide all the man I can ever be.
Looking at the last 3 years like I did
I could never see us ending like this. (Do you know?)
Seeing your face no more on my pillow
Is a scene that's never ever happened to me. (Do you know?)
But after this episode I don't see
You could never tell the next thing life could be
Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?
Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?
(Do you know?) (Do you know?) (Do you know?) (Do you know?)
Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?
Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
(Do you know how it feels?)
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?
(Do you know how it feels?) (Do you know? Do you know? Do you know? Do you?) (Do you know? Do you know? Do you know? Do you?)
容易受伤的女人
2007-07-26 18:36
有心人儿用情深
紧紧追缘共度今生
此刻不需再离分
让梦幻都变真 曾经相爱过的人
泪眼诉说亳无缘份
爱你爱得那样深
心碎也更深
情人难求
爱人总是难留
我是容易受伤的女人
无情无爱
无缘无奈的心
能不能过一生 谁会珍惜
谁又懂得接受 这个容易受伤的女人
痴痴等 到何时 有情人
火热的心会变冷
而我依然那么认真
夜深人寂只留我 伤心的女人
Final Decision has been made..........Yeah
2007-07-14 16:33
01 12 05 This is the date I ORD Loh........... hahahhaahah........ and taking my insurance exams also. Finally, I passed all the exam and contracted with M company on 17 12 05. My 1st job insurance agent........ hahhahah friends, relative and family will shock....and object also.......but....no other jobs offer me leh...hahahha send out many resumes but none ask me for interview except SIA. But kanna kicks out for the 1st interview. LOL... Life in the insurance line was good and excitement in the first few months. Did earn big money( not more than 5K) but very happy cos I person who is easy contented........ Come to the mid of 2006 I was down......business not doing well, no happy don't want to continue anymore............. But a girl came in and give me a hand wor....... Her name is Jollen, I called her shen po (god ma) why I say that cos she very devoted to her religion when u work with her, she will sing her religion songs and pray in the middle of work. Its was fun and laughter when working with her. Bring me a lot of joyful days. That's how I picked up myself and continue to work hard............................. But good days don't last long............she quit on sept.......no news from her.......just knew that she quit because she wanna concentrate on her studies............... Well, though I was down again I found a sweet guy.....from Melbourne............... He keeps encouraged and motivate me and because of him I work hard again............and finally I achieve my company minimum quota and get to appear in the newspaper........Hurray.......Hahahhaha.......... But things between us didn't go well...... Basically, we are far apart... He is unable to come and visit me often anymore..... we have to end it....... but end it doesn't mean we don't contact anymore...... we still keep SMS and called and email each other regularly...... Just that we cant live together.............. 2007 a brand new year coming to my 2nd year of insurance line........ well, though that business is hard but not still the same as 2006 good for the 1st few months.......... and this time a new girl came and help me. Celeste that's her name, a 26 young mother had a 6 years old girl..... But she came in too late to help me ........... I started to work along with her ard march....... and on and off she disappeared cos she needs to take care of her daughter and family. So happen to she disappear when I was down...... and this down is deep down I would say lol.............. I spent one month doing nothing and just gym and running.......... And finally decided I gonna quit this job and back to my engineering. I went to tell my manager, he was shocked and followed by a friend of mine and Celeste. Both of them was shocked by my decision....... The reason I told them because I intended to transfer 1/3 of my clients to both of them each. And the rest I give back to my manager. They keep asking me why I wanna quit and keep saying I did well and good and can do better. They believe in me that I can be successful in this line....... Nevertheless, I admit I earn better income now than in 2006. I get a good commission. But I don't like the life I have now......Keep meeting people and looking for sales...... There's no single day I can forget about doing sales.... every day has to calculate how much I shortfall of sales quota and commission........ I'm tired.............. Money is not everything to me....... I rather choose a balanced lifestyle than towards money more...... Yes, maybe my time management is sucked...... But I'm tired...... nothing left can motivate and push me anymore. I worked hard for people I like and love. I don't work hard for myself.... As I like simple life... :) Now looking for a new job and no more sales line of course........hahahhahahhaha
Way Back Into Love
2007-04-28 09:31
Love this song. Knew it from the movie called "Music and Lyrics" sing by Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore
Way Back Into Love
I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me throught the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
My dynasty my name : )
2007-02-25 11:57
The Wall of the Yan State The Yan State was developed from a small prince. When the King Yan Zhaowang succeeded to the throne, he sought able people nationwide, collected them at hand and granted outstanding ones important positions. This gradually made Yan a strong state in the north of China. The Yan State bordered the Qi State on the south, the Zhao State on the west and the Han State on the northeast. On the north, the Yan State neighbored small but aggressive minority nationalities mainly Donghu, Linhu and Loufan. They harassed Yan's borders and threatened the security there. To guard against them, in the year 290 B.C., the Yan State built a wall along the Yanshan Mountain Range. The wall started from present Huailai County of Hebei Province, crossed the Luanhe River, wound on and turned off to the northeast, extended over the Liaohe River and ended in present Liaoyang of Liaoning Province. The whole route ran as long as 1000 li or 500 kilometers. It is the North Wall of the Yan State. It was the last wall built in the Warring States Period. Yan once succeeded in attacking the Qi State. For fear that the latter would fight back, Yan renovated the embankment of Yishui River and expanded it into a wall. It is known as the Yishui Wall. The Wall consisted of two parts. The first started from present Yixian County of Hebei Province, ran along the Yishui River, passed through Dingxing County and headed to the southeast. The second started from Xushui County of Hebei Province, ran towards the northeast till meeting the first part, then turned off to the southeast and finally arrived at the point about 10 kilometers southeast to Renqiu of Hebei Province.
Seven Seas by Aikawa Nanase
2007-02-24 01:13
蒼い星の砂
光の洪水 抱き合う胸の間にデジャヴを感じた
こんな風に誰かを愛しく想うだけで全てが眩しくキラめく不思議ね素直な自分でいられる二人でいると奇跡がたくさん生まれる
めぐり逢って愛して愛されて新しい私見つけた！
flying over seven seas looking for your love
つないだこの手を離さない
flying over seven seas looking for your love
心ごと抱きしめて...夢はいつも空じゃなく
海じゃなく この胸の奥にあるから
...Lyrics by Aikawa Nanase & Hotei Tomoyasu Performed by Aikawa Nanase
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