Back from Turkey

August... Back to Single and Lonely and bored life....

Feeling better after back from my holiday trip in Turkey. I met different people and learn more about myself. Yes, had fun, sex, sight seeing, eat, drink, club and cruise, however that suddenly lost of lover in my heart still there... Not sure how long it be vacant again.
The last time was vacant for 2 years so this time?

Should focus on my work and career but again... feel bored in my daily life. Morning swimming, breakfast, work, lunch, gym, home, dinner, sleep and repeat for the whole weekdays. Still looking forward to have something different like havent a love one ask you to wake up, kiss you before you go to work, text you remember to had breakfast or what you having for breakfast, hows your morning work and etc... Love Communication... hahaha....I know.. Attention Seeker... well, thats me. CHANGE? Nah... is something hard to change and this is my flaw, will have to wait for someone can afford to give me that.

Had deleted my Facebook account for a month!!! Yeehaa... I survive without social network LOL...
Most my friends cant do it but I make it LOL... Will I be back? I not sure but why I deleted? Maybe or likely is protect myself from disappointment and envy (Jealous). People may think why am I keep putting so many banned or locked for myself and making myself miserable...
I understand that nobody will pity me for that LOL... thats me, just been me, believe by doing that I can protect and avoid unneccesary emotion or thought. No see no heard no feel..

Next, how can you found a love one in your life if you keep youself away... FATE.. I leave it to that, no point chasing after someone... tired and really tired... as I say and look back.. kill people and myself in the end so not going to do that. Is time for waiting someone you like to chase after you.

Thought of able to finished my ArtWork Album for Will coming birthday but guess not able to.
Dont have that special moment and time to create it. So delayed!!! LOL... Sorry...

People also ask me about my Turkey trip balloon flight, as recently had accident and tourist die. Arent I afriad of that happen to me while I taking the flight? I dont thought of that at all, if I gonna die I die, I have no more reason to be alife since my life is bored. Remember I live my life for people I love.  My action always carried out because of someone I love, such as my last X, I done when I want to see him I book the flight tickets right away, I want to quickly move to him, I took the english lesson right away and after split I didnt continue the English exam as lost of purpose. I not able to live my life for myself yet.. still learning..when I able to complete this learning .. Not sure.. LOL...

Thats all.... as time goes by.. people change but funny things is they change easily and faster than me... I need more time and be change... good or bad.. not sure till end of the day God knows...