Supposed to go gym at 710am but thanks to my Cashcard (Carpark card), I happen to place in my car small compartment and it drop out from the compartment... Making me search for it 20mins....
So decided to go office early and start... BLOGGING.. LOL... not working...(Not that hard working)
Well, last few nights I have encounter many stupid weird dreams LOL...
Like last Saturday night (Sunday Morning), I dream I was in Bali, so thought of dropping by my X sweetie house and say hello to him. His gate was not lock so I able to go upstair and found him sleeping with another boy.
So I decided to knock on the wall and go down wait for him. My X sweetie came down and surprise to see me, we have a chat and later told me his boy or boyfriend dont like to come down and meet me. So I say is ok and I gonna leave. Before I left the place, supposed to be a goodbye kiss to my X Sweetie, we ended having a deep kiss (Wet kiss) for quite long which I was surprise that I woke up from the dreams. I not sure what the dreams mean but I was happy that I strong now that even I seen him with another guy (boy) I am fine and accepted. :)
Then again on Sunday night (Monday Morning)!!! I dream I was in a big Theme Park with lot of people at night. I heard people crying, panic, and heard that they say we need to get out from here because the Evil Samurai demon be coming out at night to this park and killed people. Then the park start screaming like chaos, with police car and ambulance running around the park and I follow the crowd running around to get out. Then I decided to hide and heard many screaming again so I decided to make a call to my X sweetie before I got kill. I start looking for his number on my phonebook but seem like the not in the list then while scrolling and looking I been killed and I also woke up from this dream.
Weird huh!!! Yes, I remember I did mention to my X sweetie, that before I die I will call him.. but surprise that I cant find his number in my phone list.. Whats that mean?
Hope this is the last weird dreams with my X sweetie, the third dreams was happen on Monday night (Tuesday Morning), I dream I was having some problems with some stuff which I cant remember and was frustrated and sitting on my room bed. Then I saw my X sweetie was arranging my clothes in my spare room which I normally hang my clothes there to dry and ready to be wear for work. He came over to me and say I got something to tell you. I say ok what you wanna tell me? He say he had know this new guy(boy) while we decided to start the relationship. I reply him ok and I wake up from the dream.
So isnt it funny!!! Almost 3 consecutive night dream of my X sweetie!!! Did told my best friend, Will and Stephanie. Will say he dont want to speculate and Stephanie say this show that I have move on and live my life without him. Is that truth? LOL... Not sure, and I can say I didnt watch horror or funny movie, animation or read horror, funny story before I sleep. Except watching porn and reading porn stories to jerk off.. which I dont think porn will lead to those dreams...
I think maybe on surface and logic I am cleared, move on and sure whatever my X sweetie is been with I am fine and we just normal friends, even though I still love him. However, my subconsious which is my dark emo side, control my mind during my resting trying to invade my mind and make me go dark..(I hope you know what I mean)... But... think this time my LOGIC won HURRAY!!!!
As I didnt stupidity go confront my X sweetie. I only share with close friends about this dreams and only tell my X sweetie I had a weird dreams but he dont bother to hear it!! So i dont care either.
Now.. what interesting is usually I single and go overseas I switch on back all my gay social apps, include website and mobile. So after I came back from Turkey, I log in to gaydar.co.uk to check messages before I call it a day. The message I send had some reply and thats how I got to know this Melbourne man... (Hahaha... another Aussie man). As far as my concern, I not going to jump into another love well again.. Please..... for god sake.. Yann.. behave!!!! We been texting lately so as and when he will msg me and is everyday and night. Even now he is in BALI having holiday!!! But then...my X sweetie also did text me before we started a relationship when he was in Thailand. So who knows this Melbourne man, still havent see my true colors like my X sweetie hahahhaa... after know me he may stopped and run away!!!! Hahahaha......
Oh yes... I got addressing name now.. last time is Gorgeous boyo.. now I have someone address me Cutie!!! LOL... thats someone is my Babe...
Anyway... my door is shut but my garden gate is open for many seeds to be throw in my garden and see which one can grow beautiful flower but then beautiful flower (Outlook) is not important because they must bear the fruits as well which give a happy ending story!!!
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