Been busy with my work... and finally completed most of my task... Yippie :)
Last week, catch up with my buddy, Kars, he still look the same and not much changes.
We had lunch and chatted about for the past 6mths what happen and hows my Turkey trip.
He also update me about himself and got news that last few weeks, he had sudden pain in his stomach and admitted to hospital. The doctor found stones in his kidney and a total of 3. One was removed on the week he admiited, the other two he be going for small surgery next two weeks. No wonder, he looks bit pale, but he still my buddy and a great buddy :). So hope everything is ok for him and ask him to update me his status.
Yes, lately this new Aussie man been texting me, yes I do like him but dont have to strong feelings yet. This is due to I still holding bit feelings of my X and my Ex and other Ex-es LOL.. or afraid of getting hurts and disappointment. However, yes this man bit different from others is he keep texting me everyday!!! Which I did enjoyed so far, because remember I born in dog year as well so need ATTENTION LOL...
But one thing I dislike him was making silly joke... That play my feelings which I really dislike that I play him back another silly joke that he went cranky with me. So I told him if you want me stop thinking silly, then dont make silly statement or joke to me.
Not sure if we really go deep what will happen? Will it be same as my last X? After 3 months giveup and raise white flag? Not sure I dont have crystal balls to see future.. So let the stream flows and see how.. Remember I dont want to chase pple anymore and this time is that Aussie man chase me. So I been doing slacking and passive instead of active.
Thats all folks!!! Still had no time to prepare for Will Birthday Present!!! SHIT!!!!
Friday, 30 August 2013
Tuesday, 27 August 2013
28th August 2013... Funny... Weird... Dark side.... Dream...
Supposed to go gym at 710am but thanks to my Cashcard (Carpark card), I happen to place in my car small compartment and it drop out from the compartment... Making me search for it 20mins....
So decided to go office early and start... BLOGGING.. LOL... not working...(Not that hard working)
Well, last few nights I have encounter many stupid weird dreams LOL...
Like last Saturday night (Sunday Morning), I dream I was in Bali, so thought of dropping by my X sweetie house and say hello to him. His gate was not lock so I able to go upstair and found him sleeping with another boy.
So I decided to knock on the wall and go down wait for him. My X sweetie came down and surprise to see me, we have a chat and later told me his boy or boyfriend dont like to come down and meet me. So I say is ok and I gonna leave. Before I left the place, supposed to be a goodbye kiss to my X Sweetie, we ended having a deep kiss (Wet kiss) for quite long which I was surprise that I woke up from the dreams. I not sure what the dreams mean but I was happy that I strong now that even I seen him with another guy (boy) I am fine and accepted. :)
Then again on Sunday night (Monday Morning)!!! I dream I was in a big Theme Park with lot of people at night. I heard people crying, panic, and heard that they say we need to get out from here because the Evil Samurai demon be coming out at night to this park and killed people. Then the park start screaming like chaos, with police car and ambulance running around the park and I follow the crowd running around to get out. Then I decided to hide and heard many screaming again so I decided to make a call to my X sweetie before I got kill. I start looking for his number on my phonebook but seem like the not in the list then while scrolling and looking I been killed and I also woke up from this dream.
Weird huh!!! Yes, I remember I did mention to my X sweetie, that before I die I will call him.. but surprise that I cant find his number in my phone list.. Whats that mean?
Hope this is the last weird dreams with my X sweetie, the third dreams was happen on Monday night (Tuesday Morning), I dream I was having some problems with some stuff which I cant remember and was frustrated and sitting on my room bed. Then I saw my X sweetie was arranging my clothes in my spare room which I normally hang my clothes there to dry and ready to be wear for work. He came over to me and say I got something to tell you. I say ok what you wanna tell me? He say he had know this new guy(boy) while we decided to start the relationship. I reply him ok and I wake up from the dream.
So isnt it funny!!! Almost 3 consecutive night dream of my X sweetie!!! Did told my best friend, Will and Stephanie. Will say he dont want to speculate and Stephanie say this show that I have move on and live my life without him. Is that truth? LOL... Not sure, and I can say I didnt watch horror or funny movie, animation or read horror, funny story before I sleep. Except watching porn and reading porn stories to jerk off.. which I dont think porn will lead to those dreams...
I think maybe on surface and logic I am cleared, move on and sure whatever my X sweetie is been with I am fine and we just normal friends, even though I still love him. However, my subconsious which is my dark emo side, control my mind during my resting trying to invade my mind and make me go dark..(I hope you know what I mean)... But... think this time my LOGIC won HURRAY!!!!
As I didnt stupidity go confront my X sweetie. I only share with close friends about this dreams and only tell my X sweetie I had a weird dreams but he dont bother to hear it!! So i dont care either.
Now.. what interesting is usually I single and go overseas I switch on back all my gay social apps, include website and mobile. So after I came back from Turkey, I log in to gaydar.co.uk to check messages before I call it a day. The message I send had some reply and thats how I got to know this Melbourne man... (Hahaha... another Aussie man). As far as my concern, I not going to jump into another love well again.. Please..... for god sake.. Yann.. behave!!!! We been texting lately so as and when he will msg me and is everyday and night. Even now he is in BALI having holiday!!! But then...my X sweetie also did text me before we started a relationship when he was in Thailand. So who knows this Melbourne man, still havent see my true colors like my X sweetie hahahhaa... after know me he may stopped and run away!!!! Hahahaha......
Oh yes... I got addressing name now.. last time is Gorgeous boyo.. now I have someone address me Cutie!!! LOL... thats someone is my Babe...
Anyway... my door is shut but my garden gate is open for many seeds to be throw in my garden and see which one can grow beautiful flower but then beautiful flower (Outlook) is not important because they must bear the fruits as well which give a happy ending story!!!
So decided to go office early and start... BLOGGING.. LOL... not working...(Not that hard working)
Well, last few nights I have encounter many stupid weird dreams LOL...
Like last Saturday night (Sunday Morning), I dream I was in Bali, so thought of dropping by my X sweetie house and say hello to him. His gate was not lock so I able to go upstair and found him sleeping with another boy.
So I decided to knock on the wall and go down wait for him. My X sweetie came down and surprise to see me, we have a chat and later told me his boy or boyfriend dont like to come down and meet me. So I say is ok and I gonna leave. Before I left the place, supposed to be a goodbye kiss to my X Sweetie, we ended having a deep kiss (Wet kiss) for quite long which I was surprise that I woke up from the dreams. I not sure what the dreams mean but I was happy that I strong now that even I seen him with another guy (boy) I am fine and accepted. :)
Then again on Sunday night (Monday Morning)!!! I dream I was in a big Theme Park with lot of people at night. I heard people crying, panic, and heard that they say we need to get out from here because the Evil Samurai demon be coming out at night to this park and killed people. Then the park start screaming like chaos, with police car and ambulance running around the park and I follow the crowd running around to get out. Then I decided to hide and heard many screaming again so I decided to make a call to my X sweetie before I got kill. I start looking for his number on my phonebook but seem like the not in the list then while scrolling and looking I been killed and I also woke up from this dream.
Weird huh!!! Yes, I remember I did mention to my X sweetie, that before I die I will call him.. but surprise that I cant find his number in my phone list.. Whats that mean?
Hope this is the last weird dreams with my X sweetie, the third dreams was happen on Monday night (Tuesday Morning), I dream I was having some problems with some stuff which I cant remember and was frustrated and sitting on my room bed. Then I saw my X sweetie was arranging my clothes in my spare room which I normally hang my clothes there to dry and ready to be wear for work. He came over to me and say I got something to tell you. I say ok what you wanna tell me? He say he had know this new guy(boy) while we decided to start the relationship. I reply him ok and I wake up from the dream.
So isnt it funny!!! Almost 3 consecutive night dream of my X sweetie!!! Did told my best friend, Will and Stephanie. Will say he dont want to speculate and Stephanie say this show that I have move on and live my life without him. Is that truth? LOL... Not sure, and I can say I didnt watch horror or funny movie, animation or read horror, funny story before I sleep. Except watching porn and reading porn stories to jerk off.. which I dont think porn will lead to those dreams...
I think maybe on surface and logic I am cleared, move on and sure whatever my X sweetie is been with I am fine and we just normal friends, even though I still love him. However, my subconsious which is my dark emo side, control my mind during my resting trying to invade my mind and make me go dark..(I hope you know what I mean)... But... think this time my LOGIC won HURRAY!!!!
As I didnt stupidity go confront my X sweetie. I only share with close friends about this dreams and only tell my X sweetie I had a weird dreams but he dont bother to hear it!! So i dont care either.
Now.. what interesting is usually I single and go overseas I switch on back all my gay social apps, include website and mobile. So after I came back from Turkey, I log in to gaydar.co.uk to check messages before I call it a day. The message I send had some reply and thats how I got to know this Melbourne man... (Hahaha... another Aussie man). As far as my concern, I not going to jump into another love well again.. Please..... for god sake.. Yann.. behave!!!! We been texting lately so as and when he will msg me and is everyday and night. Even now he is in BALI having holiday!!! But then...my X sweetie also did text me before we started a relationship when he was in Thailand. So who knows this Melbourne man, still havent see my true colors like my X sweetie hahahhaa... after know me he may stopped and run away!!!! Hahahaha......
Oh yes... I got addressing name now.. last time is Gorgeous boyo.. now I have someone address me Cutie!!! LOL... thats someone is my Babe...
Anyway... my door is shut but my garden gate is open for many seeds to be throw in my garden and see which one can grow beautiful flower but then beautiful flower (Outlook) is not important because they must bear the fruits as well which give a happy ending story!!!
Thursday, 22 August 2013
Something Amaze that I read from entertainment news
Why can the celebraties male and female can date or married even their age gap different is big?
Just read news about Alec Baldwin, age 55, (My favourite Silver daddy LOL) and his new wife (Forget her name) age 29. Of course there are others the same, you just need to google and read out.
So why does that seem to always not working for me!!! I dont mind my man is older or same age as my dad. Importantly is the love and happiness rather than the age gap or who left the world early!
And most importanly is he dont mind too...
Always say is not about just him is about me too... But come to think of it... Every love relationship one have to give and the other have to take. I chose to be the give (Sacrifice) cos I have many to give... LOL.. Of course there are time I wont give but take and I will sound out.. yet usually when I sound out the other party doesnt give! Ironic LOL...So slowly turn sour and worst!!! If look back all the XXXXXX more or less is I give the most set the $$$ aside.
Anyway, lets see my next Relationship gonna be like... if you dont see me update means I enjoyed my happy life. If you see me back here means.. ok I back to my lonely life so come here to tell you story and my thought.
Gym now!!!!
Just read news about Alec Baldwin, age 55, (My favourite Silver daddy LOL) and his new wife (Forget her name) age 29. Of course there are others the same, you just need to google and read out.
So why does that seem to always not working for me!!! I dont mind my man is older or same age as my dad. Importantly is the love and happiness rather than the age gap or who left the world early!
And most importanly is he dont mind too...
Always say is not about just him is about me too... But come to think of it... Every love relationship one have to give and the other have to take. I chose to be the give (Sacrifice) cos I have many to give... LOL.. Of course there are time I wont give but take and I will sound out.. yet usually when I sound out the other party doesnt give! Ironic LOL...So slowly turn sour and worst!!! If look back all the XXXXXX more or less is I give the most set the $$$ aside.
Anyway, lets see my next Relationship gonna be like... if you dont see me update means I enjoyed my happy life. If you see me back here means.. ok I back to my lonely life so come here to tell you story and my thought.
Gym now!!!!
Wednesday, 21 August 2013
Back from Turkey
August... Back to Single and Lonely and bored life....
Feeling better after back from my holiday trip in Turkey. I met different people and learn more about myself. Yes, had fun, sex, sight seeing, eat, drink, club and cruise, however that suddenly lost of lover in my heart still there... Not sure how long it be vacant again.
The last time was vacant for 2 years so this time?
Should focus on my work and career but again... feel bored in my daily life. Morning swimming, breakfast, work, lunch, gym, home, dinner, sleep and repeat for the whole weekdays. Still looking forward to have something different like havent a love one ask you to wake up, kiss you before you go to work, text you remember to had breakfast or what you having for breakfast, hows your morning work and etc... Love Communication... hahaha....I know.. Attention Seeker... well, thats me. CHANGE? Nah... is something hard to change and this is my flaw, will have to wait for someone can afford to give me that.
Had deleted my Facebook account for a month!!! Yeehaa... I survive without social network LOL...
Most my friends cant do it but I make it LOL... Will I be back? I not sure but why I deleted? Maybe or likely is protect myself from disappointment and envy (Jealous). People may think why am I keep putting so many banned or locked for myself and making myself miserable...
I understand that nobody will pity me for that LOL... thats me, just been me, believe by doing that I can protect and avoid unneccesary emotion or thought. No see no heard no feel..
Next, how can you found a love one in your life if you keep youself away... FATE.. I leave it to that, no point chasing after someone... tired and really tired... as I say and look back.. kill people and myself in the end so not going to do that. Is time for waiting someone you like to chase after you.
Thought of able to finished my ArtWork Album for Will coming birthday but guess not able to.
Dont have that special moment and time to create it. So delayed!!! LOL... Sorry...
People also ask me about my Turkey trip balloon flight, as recently had accident and tourist die. Arent I afriad of that happen to me while I taking the flight? I dont thought of that at all, if I gonna die I die, I have no more reason to be alife since my life is bored. Remember I live my life for people I love. My action always carried out because of someone I love, such as my last X, I done when I want to see him I book the flight tickets right away, I want to quickly move to him, I took the english lesson right away and after split I didnt continue the English exam as lost of purpose. I not able to live my life for myself yet.. still learning..when I able to complete this learning .. Not sure.. LOL...
Thats all.... as time goes by.. people change but funny things is they change easily and faster than me... I need more time and be change... good or bad.. not sure till end of the day God knows...
Feeling better after back from my holiday trip in Turkey. I met different people and learn more about myself. Yes, had fun, sex, sight seeing, eat, drink, club and cruise, however that suddenly lost of lover in my heart still there... Not sure how long it be vacant again.
The last time was vacant for 2 years so this time?
Should focus on my work and career but again... feel bored in my daily life. Morning swimming, breakfast, work, lunch, gym, home, dinner, sleep and repeat for the whole weekdays. Still looking forward to have something different like havent a love one ask you to wake up, kiss you before you go to work, text you remember to had breakfast or what you having for breakfast, hows your morning work and etc... Love Communication... hahaha....I know.. Attention Seeker... well, thats me. CHANGE? Nah... is something hard to change and this is my flaw, will have to wait for someone can afford to give me that.
Had deleted my Facebook account for a month!!! Yeehaa... I survive without social network LOL...
Most my friends cant do it but I make it LOL... Will I be back? I not sure but why I deleted? Maybe or likely is protect myself from disappointment and envy (Jealous). People may think why am I keep putting so many banned or locked for myself and making myself miserable...
I understand that nobody will pity me for that LOL... thats me, just been me, believe by doing that I can protect and avoid unneccesary emotion or thought. No see no heard no feel..
Next, how can you found a love one in your life if you keep youself away... FATE.. I leave it to that, no point chasing after someone... tired and really tired... as I say and look back.. kill people and myself in the end so not going to do that. Is time for waiting someone you like to chase after you.
Thought of able to finished my ArtWork Album for Will coming birthday but guess not able to.
Dont have that special moment and time to create it. So delayed!!! LOL... Sorry...
People also ask me about my Turkey trip balloon flight, as recently had accident and tourist die. Arent I afriad of that happen to me while I taking the flight? I dont thought of that at all, if I gonna die I die, I have no more reason to be alife since my life is bored. Remember I live my life for people I love. My action always carried out because of someone I love, such as my last X, I done when I want to see him I book the flight tickets right away, I want to quickly move to him, I took the english lesson right away and after split I didnt continue the English exam as lost of purpose. I not able to live my life for myself yet.. still learning..when I able to complete this learning .. Not sure.. LOL...
Thats all.... as time goes by.. people change but funny things is they change easily and faster than me... I need more time and be change... good or bad.. not sure till end of the day God knows...
Friday, 9 August 2013
"Not Alone"
"Not Alone"
Composed and Written: Yann Cheong
I wasn’t alone and not living alone.
There are many people surrounding me.
Chorus
Repeat Chorus
Composed and Written: Yann Cheong
I wasn’t alone and not living alone.
There are many people surrounding me.
I wasn’t in love and this is alright.
I have many friends around me.
Yes, I may be one man.
Living in one room.
I will still live my life happy.
Chorus
Because life is too short.
Cant be sad all your life.
Say goodbye to your old one
And welcome to your new one
And Love comes and goes.
It doesn’t wait for us.
When your love bridge broken down
We just keep on build new one.
You wasn’t alone and not living alone.
Please look at the people surrounding you.
You may be in love or may be not.
Your friends and family still care for you.
Yes, life can be lonely.
And can be lovely
Just put a smile and live with it.Repeat Chorus
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