Today just went out and order custom make handkerchief with initial for my friends. Friends who I put them in my heart and remember in my life. And I'm still sad when I start thinking of her, my tears flow out easily.. guess like the Westlife song "Too hard to say goodbye".
Yesterday and today, a death thought also coming to my mind, which I not sure why. I find my life is getting mono... I being keeping my body healthy by changing my diet, go swiming and practicing yoga. All these should keep me busy and also work as well. However, they doesnt able to filled my lonely heart and heart of having children and the life I persuit... I guess I afriad I cant achieve either one of them.. no able to found him, not able to have him/her and not even able to live alone... therefore, decided to end my life be better than feeling miserable... Is a way and a coward way of escaping facing of failure.
Not sure why... well.. days just move on till there's no tomorrow or I cant open my eyes to see tomorrow. Bye blogger...
No comments:
Post a Comment