Recently, I thought is my job as a trainee that make me feel down... In fact, it is not that. I misses the old times... have a friend who kind of like a lover. Went over his place spend couple of hours or a night over there... I really really missed that time... Well, you can say go find one new friend of this what so ever you call! But I isolate myself from the gay scene, and even the gay social network (except facebook), so chances of havent that is less possible.
So happen just I am down tonight, my Tiger whom recently left Sg to work in Thailand whatsapp me hehehe.. Guess my god treat me not bad, see me down and send one of my best friend to contact me. He is fine and planning to come back Sg. So which means maybe soon I will have the time I want back, once my Tiger back to Sg.
And re-think bout it.. all those friends that I mentioned enjoying the time in their place for couple of hours or over night. Are once I love and after them, I really do love them. And I know they do love me as well. However, they never come and hold me to their arms because something in their mind hold them back. What is it that holding them back? I'm not sure and is a past, right now maybe they took me as a very good friend and not potential lover anymore. As for me, my love towards them remain in my heart, you can go ahead to call me a playboy having so many lovers in my mind and heart. Each of them are special and touch my heart like I touch their heart too. If anyone of them hold me and ask me to stay with them. "I DO"
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