Today is the end of 3rd week of work and all I've done was reading and reading of the Rules and regulation of the society. Somehow I think of it, is kind of irony. LOL.....
Why? I am a L Society scholar! The L Society sponser my degree study but I didnt work for them after graduate. Instead I work for N Society, a sort of L society rivals LOL.... So am I consider a betrayer? Well, upon my graduate the L Society didnt offer me any job and allow me to look for other company but must be in Singapore marine industry. During my study for my degree, all along I thought I have no worries and can work in L Society. Working in L Society is a kind of prestige or classy I would say and so is other Societies if you working with one of them. Hahaha... however, that didnt happen, I was wrong. I put it as kind of unwanted or been disowned!
Now I working with N Society, and had inform to the L Society my status. Frankly speaking, I dont know how they feel? or how they look at me? Is isnt my fault as they never offer me a job and I want to make them feel that is a lost for them for not employing me as their member. In order to do that, I need to work my way up in N society, proving how good am I. So I got to take all the hardship and shit even if tough. Am I evil or not? I not too sure....
Beside thinking of work, I also come to have thought of GOD... LOL... Crazy right LOL.... I believe each of us have individual GOD looking after us. He/She be following you and offer or punished you along your life. They are like our guidance with special power but we cant see them. They offer their power to us but still is up to us whether to accept or reject. Have this thought is because of my friend Steph, we somehow after working in Qatar, we both have kind of similar situation running along our life in Singapore now.... but her God is been nice to her abit I would say LOL... cos she never lost money and I DID!!!!!
2 more days to go and it is Chinese New Year, and I feel crying sometime too... not bout work not bout my present life... is something I learnt from the past and it is a Regret and a mark in my life......
Friday, 20 January 2012
Thursday, 12 January 2012
Singapore Goverment looking into Marriage!
Having a long day training and back home late and when I reached home, my mum told me an officer just came by to look for me doing a survey held by the Singapore goverment. I call up the officer mobile and to ask if she could walk back to my place if she was not far away from my house?
She came back to my house and start the survey with me, the survey is about Marriage in Singapore.
The survey question ask why are you not marriage and a list of reason for you to chose, I honestly answer the survey and also put up one of the reason I not marriage is because Civil Marriage is not legalized in Singapore. I wonder how the back end officer gonna write the report when he/she saw my reason. In addtion, there are many question which lead you to reveal youself as gay and I did not avoid it. I honestly state I not interested with opposite sex as my partner.
I know if my mum understand english well, she probably been having a worried face as I answer back to the officer regard why I not getting married. I also wonder if I will be listed by the goverment as indirectly telling them that I am gay! LOL... It does not matter to me and if the goverment have the intention of making trouble to gay people, I have nothing much to say to the goverment but disagrace, disappointment and ashamed of my goverment.
Tomorrow is my last day of new employee training and next week I be going to another department continue another training. I will SURVIVED!
She came back to my house and start the survey with me, the survey is about Marriage in Singapore.
The survey question ask why are you not marriage and a list of reason for you to chose, I honestly answer the survey and also put up one of the reason I not marriage is because Civil Marriage is not legalized in Singapore. I wonder how the back end officer gonna write the report when he/she saw my reason. In addtion, there are many question which lead you to reveal youself as gay and I did not avoid it. I honestly state I not interested with opposite sex as my partner.
I know if my mum understand english well, she probably been having a worried face as I answer back to the officer regard why I not getting married. I also wonder if I will be listed by the goverment as indirectly telling them that I am gay! LOL... It does not matter to me and if the goverment have the intention of making trouble to gay people, I have nothing much to say to the goverment but disagrace, disappointment and ashamed of my goverment.
Tomorrow is my last day of new employee training and next week I be going to another department continue another training. I will SURVIVED!
Wednesday, 11 January 2012
Tired~~!
The new job make me very tired!!!! Not much of work.. but the training program for reading up the materials is too much... and some lecture held by the GM and manager is like a torture!!! One long witted, one question you with you having fear and the other erm... quite ok ... but most important is there are training report to be completed for each lecture topic!!!!
Tired.. but enjoyed! :) Only work work work in my life now
Tired.. but enjoyed! :) Only work work work in my life now
Saturday, 7 January 2012
2012... 1st week of Jan
1st week of Jan and 2012 had nearly gone soon.
For my new job, 1st week was fine, having training lecturer everyday and will end next week friday. All people look friendly and good in office, except one GM bringing me fear feeling LOL.. Because he is not an easy person to deal with and if you ever make mistake be ready for his lecturer (I mean scolding). Whenever talk to him, make sure answer what he wants and sensible talking with no nonsense. I think I am an icon too in the company, as I am the only trainee in that whole F...king company... Those new guys employed are all becoming true survey after 3 months confirmation and for me I opt for trainee course which is 1 year and 2 months.. LOL.. whether is good and bad.. Well, I just work hard on it and take the challenge. As I like challenge, beside I have nothing much important in my life for the time being but work work work career career career.
Yesterday and now feeling down. The feeling started yesterday morning when I wake up hearing my mum quarrel with my dad on phone. Yes, is that bitch again... Story I heard from the quarrel was that bitch called to my house but without answering when my mum picked up. My house phone installed caller ID so my mum knows is that bitch called. So my mum called up my dad and confront him. He denied of still contacting that bitch and mum dont believe and so on and so on....
I inform both my siblings about it before I walk out of the room and the phone quarrel had stopped. Mum was busy drying clothes in the kitchen. As I walked in, she was normal as though nothing had happened just now. I told her if something serious happen called up my brother or sister, for night time called me or my sister as my brother out with his wife to a music concert. Had my lunch with my mum to make sure she is ok before I went to library and study the documents that my work required for me to read up.
Then my brother called me and he told me he had talk to mum, this Chinese New Year will be the last reunion with dad around. After the Chinese New Year, we will force dad to move out of the house. Sound cruel but it should be done... or I should say done long time ago.
May sound funny, to people whom I close reading this post. As earlier on I mentioned, I declared my dad is dead. Yes indeed, but still physically he is there infront of you and thought you really and wanted this to happen. Yet again, you still feel sad bout it... LOL.. Hard to satisfy myself isnt it?
Had received messages from Steph, she told me bout her family stuff as she also had fight with her family. Sometime I think, both of our life are very similar, job, family and love...
For my new job, 1st week was fine, having training lecturer everyday and will end next week friday. All people look friendly and good in office, except one GM bringing me fear feeling LOL.. Because he is not an easy person to deal with and if you ever make mistake be ready for his lecturer (I mean scolding). Whenever talk to him, make sure answer what he wants and sensible talking with no nonsense. I think I am an icon too in the company, as I am the only trainee in that whole F...king company... Those new guys employed are all becoming true survey after 3 months confirmation and for me I opt for trainee course which is 1 year and 2 months.. LOL.. whether is good and bad.. Well, I just work hard on it and take the challenge. As I like challenge, beside I have nothing much important in my life for the time being but work work work career career career.
Yesterday and now feeling down. The feeling started yesterday morning when I wake up hearing my mum quarrel with my dad on phone. Yes, is that bitch again... Story I heard from the quarrel was that bitch called to my house but without answering when my mum picked up. My house phone installed caller ID so my mum knows is that bitch called. So my mum called up my dad and confront him. He denied of still contacting that bitch and mum dont believe and so on and so on....
I inform both my siblings about it before I walk out of the room and the phone quarrel had stopped. Mum was busy drying clothes in the kitchen. As I walked in, she was normal as though nothing had happened just now. I told her if something serious happen called up my brother or sister, for night time called me or my sister as my brother out with his wife to a music concert. Had my lunch with my mum to make sure she is ok before I went to library and study the documents that my work required for me to read up.
Then my brother called me and he told me he had talk to mum, this Chinese New Year will be the last reunion with dad around. After the Chinese New Year, we will force dad to move out of the house. Sound cruel but it should be done... or I should say done long time ago.
May sound funny, to people whom I close reading this post. As earlier on I mentioned, I declared my dad is dead. Yes indeed, but still physically he is there infront of you and thought you really and wanted this to happen. Yet again, you still feel sad bout it... LOL.. Hard to satisfy myself isnt it?
Had received messages from Steph, she told me bout her family stuff as she also had fight with her family. Sometime I think, both of our life are very similar, job, family and love...
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