Someone else but not me

After all the terrible week gone... I finally gain something and learn something.... though is pain but I glad that we still keep as friends...

By the way I just completed a song that I composed... the chorus had been hanging there for few months and now is finally wrapped up as a complete song.

"Someone else but not me" composed and sing by Yann Cheong

You know many guys.
But you always like to hang out with me
I don't mind at all, I just treat you as my sister

Don't keep blaming yourself.
Cause I'm part of this as well.
If I know that coming, i would have prevented that.

Oh baby just be yourself.
Speak when you need and do what you think is good for you

Chorus

Cause there's no right or wrong
You just need to be strong.
A fall is just nothing
You just keep on standing

Please believe in waiting
There be someone coming
To hold you up tightly and kissing you deeply, say that I love you.

Please follow to your heart
Don't try to resist it
I know you cant hold this feeling for me.

Don't keep blaming yourself.
Cause I'm part of this as well.
If I didn't met you, this wouldn't happen.

Oh baby just be yourself.
Speak when you need and do what you think is good for you

Repeat Chorus

But that's someone isn't me at all
Don't ask me for any reasons.
There's no way we'll be together.
I dont have that feeling for you

Is my way of love wrong?

I dont know... I not sure... Am I wrong!!!  Is my way of showing love wrong!!!
Been keeping reading the email... What is Facebook? Isnt it a place for me to share my thought and my feelings? Isnt it also to show and share your love to someone? Am I been romantic or am I causing trouble? Can someone define Facebook? Why?

I told myself dont ever open your heart and be tough and strong... Yet I falling again.. and this fall I expected when I say the 3 words out. Is a cursed to me...once I say out too fast... I thought I prepare it very well and ready for the hurt feelings. Wrong again... I didnt know the impact was so strong to me. My heart is fragile like a piece of glass, not as strong as anybody thought.

The hurt somehow is stronger than the one broke my heart when I working in Qatar!!
I'm sorry to my best friend, William, I didnt meant to be nasty to him. Is just that after knowing each other for so long, hasnt he know me well? Would I want to hurt anyone? Probably, he didnt know when I all out to love I shout out to the world. Probably, I thought in a normal love scene, where all women would like the man who love them to tell the world and make promise to the world so that they find secure and trust from the man. Only man who dare to shout out and say out to the world meant his words and yes this is the man I am. Yet, I got no appreciation, maybe I live and see too many straight friends and forgotten how gays fall in love, or gays couple live... Are they same as the straight couple or they are not?

Anyway, I didnt really want to hurt you and you have your own trouble too. I will be fine in few days, I still young still have many years and chances to go. I just hope I didnt make you in difficult situation. If not I am very sorry and embarrassed the things I brought to you. Somehow my way of love is still too naive.

" You think that I'm strong, you wrong, you wrong!!" Listen to Robbie Williams song "Strong"